They say that the most unbearable pain is to lose a child
As a mere 17yr old, I cannot possibly imagine the grief you'd experience
But let me tell you something...

First, your child, your children will be in a comforting place. If 'God' were to exist, I really bet  he would lead such sweet children to a sweet place.

Second, losing a child is the biggest pain you can possibly bear.
You already reached your rock bottom. You can't possibly be more painful than this.
Now the only thing you should wait is to go back up. 
For the rest of your life, your life would go only up. You'd just always be happy.

I cannot possibly write a 'comforting' letter as I cannot even fathom the amount of grief you experience. So I can only say that you're strong... I understand you... Your children are well... The world is so not fair... what right does it have to take such beautiful beings away from you...

But now, let them go, they are living peacefully and comfortingly in the designated place.
They know how much you love them...

Love, Jiyoun J. Ha    

by Jiyoun J. Ha in Tenafly