I don't know what to say. I can't say I understand exactly what you're going through, because I don't.
But I know what it feels like to lose someone you know, love, care about...
This is probably an unbearably difficult time for you right now, but I want you to know that you're not alone. There are thousands of people in this world who have lost a sibling, friend, child, relative, acquaintance, teacher, classmate...not in the same way as you have lost, but we know your pain. I am praying for all of you. Please know that God is reaching out to you right now, He loves you and wants your attention and love desperately. You may be feeling angry at Him right now, or upset or confused or frustrated...but know that He did not plan for this incident; He never wanted this to happen. But He gave men free will and certain men misuse this free will. Yet, we should still have a heart of forgiveness. We can't understand everything that happens, but the thing we can do is reach out to others. As others reach out to you, remember to reach out to each other and support one another in godly love.

by Gloria in Leonia